,

I'm glad you've accepted reality, now...

It is important to find a SUPPORT SYSTEM
Why don't you give

a call ??
It is always better to reach out to a professional,
but if you are not comfortable yet.
Reaching out to someone who knows you will definitely help !!
Researchers say that having a support system helps your coping skills
as well as reducing ANXIETY and DEPRESSION
And I mean.. who doesn't like to gossip and talk things through?
This brings me to give you your next two options:
Develop a
mindfulness
routine
Engage in
reckless
and impulsive behavior without any regard for the consequences.